JAS ((: this is a story bout a girl

Monday, May 30, 2005

hmmm...i am back to bloggin ler..hahax
well i am jux plain bored larhs hahax...yawns.
well todae plainy stayed the whole dae at home! ahh so not mi lors! wad happen to mi? haix...well to mi yesterdae was not a gd dae out larhs..cux i didnt expect jeanice they all to come wid us..haix then tt zh so quiet i guess i can figure it out why larhs..hahax..nvm i feel so happy lors..guess without mi lao da they all can tok bax..yarhs its alrite wid mi..haix.the pressure is jux non-stop..my parents ask mi whether did i do my homework WTH! i hate it! i think one dae i am gonna be a gig if this goes on! FUCK MY LIFE!
WhereHaveAllTheColoursInMyLifeGoneTo?
WhatHasHappenToMi?
yIsItAllLykThat?

This few daes i hv been listernin to this song feelin down yarhs budden the tears jux cant come out and it really kills mi.cant tk it.even as everytime in the dae i do feel lyk cryin budden i cant.sumtimes i really ask myself y put on a false front when it is not wad u think?i even told myself."jasmine jux cry it out u aint tt strong always" but i juz cant.so every time i had to cry to myself infront of my computer.i dun lyk to spoil ppl mood so i juz had to cry to myself.and everytime i hear this song.[journey by zhang shao han].i will jux cry out listernin and focusin on the words of the song.the song jux really describe how i am feeling.of how i feel sumhow this song make mi pour out all my sorrow.

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.to you

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